@ultrablue, @injapan, @omoobagberume, @Traveller:
I had a similar journey, and I admire your committment, I literally know what it takes. I started the program in 2008.
Every time I passed a level, I demolished the multiple choice: L1 and L3 70%+ on all. L2 results were very good as well.
2015 L3 AM made me an angry bear; the bear came back and showed the PM how it’s done by the book.
The journey:
2008 L1: A pathetic try to pass after countless hours of reading the curriculum, no idea how hard the tests were, no communication, no outside information. Can’t remember the band. Never failed an exam in my entire life, never had a low grade. Yes, game on!
2009 L1: 70%+ on all: I knew it the moment I walked out of the room. Didn’t even get excited when I opened the email. Boss is back.
2010 L2: Band 6: Difficult test, study harder next time!
2011 L2: Pass: It was about time.
2012 L3: Band 8: I set myself for failure here, didn’t study enough.
2013 L3: Band 9: On results day, I went to a dinner with my friends, and explained to them how I was going to become a PMgr. It was very tough to talk with excitement.
2014 L3: Band 10: Stomach pain for 2 days. Decided to give-up the old system of glazing through the curriculum and old notes for countless hours, and not practicing EOC multiple times.
2015 L3: Pass: EOC paid off. For results day, I had arranged a big party with family/friends, conventional and bizarre foods, and a lot of alcohol. I knew this was the end of it. Nobody knew I was taking/passing the test, it was too embarrassing to talk about it after 2013. And, yes, I got the PMgr job, not contingent on the test, but based on achievements.
Why did I keep failing so many times: LOSING FOCUS AND INTEREST. In 2010, I was already bored to death with studying. The only thing that kept me going was the fact that I DON’T LEAVE UNFINISHED BUSINESS.
I got my closure: I am OUT. I made it, I finished something I hated. I can’t tell you how much better I have become at everything I do, after I learned that I don’t have to deal with this crap anymore.
Did I learn anything from this? Yeah! Now I can apply it and lecture people how things are done the right way, and I don’t even have to refer to the curriculum, because it is engraved into my brain.
Now, if you may all excuse me, I need to get back to my life, and concentrate on raising my son. Au Revoir!