May be this thought can help- a person who can not command his desires and taste will sooner than later lose all the respect he commands from others (including the dearest ones!). You get only once to live , chances to change bad habits or reform or improve comes rarely - now that your inner voice has made you think about it do not ignore it, no one is forcing you. If you decide and stick to your decision - whetever may be the divesions - you have already done it.
"This is going to be difficult" is merely a thought which you have created yourself in your weakened mind to find excuse even before you have started on the self-motivated journey (indeed how coward we are when it comes to doing good deeds, you never thought so when you sipped the first peg way back!). Have the self-courage to face the challenge - no one else can help you (though luckily you have a company from AF to motivate you).
Thanks. No excuses. The dearest ones are all gone due to your aforementioned reasons. Well said. Understood.
“Sundown you better take care… Sometimes… I think it’s a shame, when I get feeling better when I’m feeling no pain… Sometimes I think it’s a sin, when I feel like I’m winning, when I’m losing again…” - Gordon Lightfoot ‘Sundown’
So walking home from the bar Sat. night ~3:30a, some random chick walking by herself with a battery powered skill saw. No joke. She revved it at us. I damn near shit myself.
She wasn’t even crazy looking, just like someone you went to college with or something.
I have really acute anxiety all day. have trouble speaking, and making eye contact with colleagues, so I’ve been silent and staring at a spreadsheet feigning that I’m analyzing something. In my experience, the longest I’ve gone in the past 3 years, was about 3 days. On the third day, I get sweaty palms, and shaky. And my brain just shuts down.
Sounds like you should consult a doctor before giving up alcohol. It could be physically dangerous to give up at once. I hope the symptoms are only psychological but what do I know, IANADr!
At least find a 1-800 line for AA or a program sponsored by your company health insurance (many have programs for addictions, separate from your regular sniffles insurance) and talk to someone.
I have these symptoms without alochol…what should i do?
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benzodiazepanes…for anxiety medication
These anxiety symptoms can paralyze your decision making and activities of daily living and ultimately make your daily life rather miserable.
It has always been a major detriment to my career, especially after leaving proprietary trading and going into a pure corporate atmosphere where you have to deal with all types of social frequencies and interactions with people.
When I was trading, it was simply the numbers on the screen, and on the floor, it was simple shouting quick words, and hand signaling… no need to speak and get ‘buy in’ and ‘touch base’ and ‘circle back’ and key takeaways and powerpoint presentations where I mumble my words… and look down on the floor… I’m simply not a people person and it’s a heavy lift for me to present my analyses to anyone from senior mgmt to interns…
i shall look into it !..during an interview some time ago…i was so anxious, the HR lady stopped me in the middle of a powerpoint presentation,went out the room and gave me a bottle of water to calm me down; making,upon her return, some statement regarding the stress one feels when confronted with competition (other candidates)…i think my heart sank to the floor right there and never returned…lol…i shall never ever forget her face (very pretty btw)
Definitely look into it. I use Ativan (very old school benzo) cheap, but not prescribed as the first choice, also used for recovering alcoholics for tapering down and avoiding the delirium tremens.
But yeah, not that I’ve had many interviews lately (even though been applying to dozens of positions), just trying to hang on to my pretty rotten position right now(not a CFA or MBA level position whatsoever), but I did have a phone interview with a mgmt consulting firm a couple months ago, and I didn’t take meds, etc, and on the phone, I was stuttering and that just about destroyed me right there.
benzodiazepanes has some side effects though…making it hard to concentrate or remember stuff. Many effects of these types of meds vary with age…so use with care!..I am 26 btw, how old are you?
Definitely use with care. Yes, you can have short term amnesia if you take too much. They are also hard to ‘taper off’ themselves, and you must taper off if you use habitually, can’t go cold turkey with benzos.
Mo, I used to get terribly nervous before the 50 free(swimming), and I’d get nervous before sparring just 1 round with some Golden Glove guy, let alone a pro… after getting hit with two jabs straight, the nervousness went away…
Mike Tyson once said, “everybody has a plan, until they get punched in the mouth.”
nervosity has been an ongoing thing with me since i was a child… i used to secretly skip school because being in a room with other kids sometimes gets to me…this is something i just admitted to my parents last year eventhough I promised myself i would never telll them. To be fair I did have an accident when I was 6 years old which resulted in 11 stitches to my forehead…it is still very visible till now especially under the sun! According to my parents my personality changed since that incident…although personally i don’t really remember a before or an after version of Alladin.