I had two stitches on my forehead when I was 13… And I became more extroverted after that lol (but never a really extroverted person still)
If I have to do presentations I don’t look at anyone in particular and just look somewhere blank in the air -_-
Lockheed doesn’t sound that shy to me though
lockheed’s condition sounds like one that merits medical attention…mine is probably down to behavioural modification…dunno!
Yours requires psychological attention? Lol… Joking… I’m sure its not that bad! You all seem very smart and capable.
Got a Powerpoint conference call today… I have no game plan… and I simply not going to read the bulletpoints straight, because everyone in the call should have read them by now.
So, I’m just going to announce who is on the call, and say nothing after that. After the awkward silence, somebody is gonna half to say something to get the ball rolling.
that’s my strategy for today.
strip strip strip
So few days ago, I did go into Dakota Roadhouse after work, and there was a new bartender being overly sassy and rough. I said, “I’ll have a coke”. As I was gonna watch the Yankees game.
The bartender says, ‘We only serve alcohol here man’.
I said, “Not true, why’s that?”
She snaps a mousetrap (they are lined along the bar) and says, “Because I’m a hard b-tch.”
To which I replied, “Then why don’t you soften up.”
your life is infinitely more interesting than mine lock
Day 3, doing good, except I keep putting typos in all ostings.
Day 4. Yo lockheed! Chime in.
Flipped out Recho. ;(
failed. went monday and tues, and wednesday. tonight not so good…Bernanke really fucked up my net worth. But aside from all that… I reckon i’d sip on the syrup regardless…
when I go three days, it’s typical, i feel achievement, then I say okay, and then I overcompensate. I was stronger in my youth… my hair is grey, too grey…
I fucking failed.
I will try again. Gonna jog along the Hudson River this weekend… get some kind of endorphins in my synapses… will drink water and stay dry… on the weekends I can do this…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uejh-bHa4To
thanks, bro…
Day 5 and still taking one day at a time. I kind of expected each day to get easier, but not yet. After about 2 weeks of working out and staying dry, it does get easier (from past experience.)
Hey lockheed, there is no shame in failure, the shame would be if you didn’t try. Don’t beat yourself up. And if you want to wallow in self-pity, that’s fine too. Really it is. There is a time to regulate your emotions but this is not that time. Just don’t drink today 
Maybe you need other distractions - CFA study, porn, music, running, all of these together, whatever floats your boat and gets you away physically or mentally from the bottle.
Also, don’t think of drink as this great demon you have to slay. More like a piece of food stuck in your tooth that you’re trying to get to with a toothpick. One tooothpick broke, so pick another and try again. No big deal.
Recho, this makes a lot of sense. I spent Saturday… in the Park… reading Philip K. Dick stories…
And then, I went to see ‘The Master’ movie. It was funny enough.
Anyways, another week begins. 30 yr Bond back above 3.00%.
Tooting my own horn - Day 11, going well, wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too busy at work to do anything but come home, play with kids, watch TV, go to sleep. Good distractions. But honestly, the longing diminishes each day so it’s easier to fight. Got to run, I tried but failed to stay away from AF 
Day 11! I’m impressed. I went three, then alternated, and will probably dry out for this weekend. I’m way ‘not’ too busy at work these days. Nothing is business critical. I might take a long walk to a Taco Bell for a mexican pizza. I might increase my short position on Goldman’s Sack (GS), targeting $115.
Autumn is here. Gonna take a jog in Central Park tomorrow morning, clear my head. Damn it, it’s only 10:36am here.
^ A day spent enjoying the fermented grape juice is a day well spent. Lost decade my ass. If you enjoyed it, you didn’t lose anything. Overindulgence is another matter. Hence the dry tank.
All these 20th century novelists writing melodrama. Overindulgence in emotional stimulation. What you do when you are not overstimulated by social networks like AF.
Weird thing is happening to me when not on the booze lately (two days so far almost). I’m actually finding it more difficult to study, and my mind is actually less clear when reading (I’m going over stuff that I did in FRA when I was drunk, and it seems harder doing the problems while sober). And I start to forget simple things, like changing my underwear.
Hopefully it’s just a physical/mental transition period and that soon I’ll be sharper by being sober.
I love that AF has ‘diversified’ into a support group for alcoholics. CFA takes its toll in a lot of ways. Alcoholism is one. As for me, I’ll never admit I have a problem. Good luck fellas.
4 days. Longest I’ve been in at least two years. Do I feel better yet? Not at all. Can’t even think straight when sober, and sweaty palm anxiety. But I think the 4th day is the hump I have to get over before my body/mind begins to feel healthier… also have this constant frown on my face and angry look… actually straining my face muscles… also can’t hold a conversation for more than 5 seconds yet… so thankfully, no interviews coming my way yet…
Has anyone ever been to Dublin for St. Paddy’s? I’d like to hear more about it.